~很想说 - 对不起 ~

今天心情很乱， 下午就开始有这种感觉
睡不着，很不开心。。为了避宿舍没电就到朋友家玩
在走去和返回的路程， 我想了很多。。头脑很凌乱。。
看了搞笑片， 心情还是很沉重。。
回家后也哭了。。发泄了出来。。还是很沉重。。
睡了大约半小时，醒来后我很想在睡， 很希望能忘掉所有的烦恼
可是再也睡不着。。总觉得我很坏， 总是让身边的人受伤害。。
我真的很不想伤害人，我也会很心痛。。我是真的心痛。。
可能我很笨， 不会去顾虑到别人。。一不小心就伤到人。。
今晚， 送上了我千千万万的对不起
对星星许了愿。。希望身边的人都天天开心。。

~another movie day~

huhu~~..this morning,friday wake up..luckily no sore throat but i quickly drink lots of water..hope it won sick..hmm..but things when wrong..when i brush teeth i vomit out the water..haha..siao...really duno wat happen to my stomach..today blur blur..slept at 5am but wake up at 9:45am..duno why my eye cant close again after wake up..usually i will lying on bed till 10:15 only wake up..haiz..not enough sleep nvm lo..go class liao still can concentrate..luckily la..so suei when go toilet..the door striaght away bang on my eye's above when i try to open the door...walao eh...pain like hell...my bone ler.....for a few mins i keep on massage n rub it but still very pain..till now still pain n a bit "bengkak" liao...haiz..duno wat happen to me today..how come i can let the door bang on me and din defend myself..hmm....today still go for movie cos last time i watch spiderwick..so today go for =AH LONG LTD= hehe...so many entertainment b4 break..walao..sunway many ppl wei...reach there around 3:30..get ticket in 3.55pm..left 15mis to had my lunch..wuwuwu~~~but rush also ok la..at least the movie worth it..hihi..whole movie was like..laugh till ends..hihi...its funny..i like it..on the way back saw a huge and clear rainbow..hihi..so nice..come home clean up room..feel more tidy..but tiring..tomolo no electric..so gonna "cabut" liao..~~bye~~happy holiday to myself..hihi..hope can 55 finish my things.

~endless happy day~

today..haha..just back from balakong..hihi
so happy..today no class..so after go padi house do survey i went out with shen wah, ling ling n siang rui...our 1st destination is SING K!!! this sing k plan actually had been plan for abt 1month ago..haha..but today..finally we go for it..at least..i make out my promise to the sing-k king..wakaka...sampat..we go for buffet time but 2person eat very little..while other 2person eat like a horse..haha...really admire them..i not sure why i not so into the mood in eating..but i ate lots of ice-cream..haha..maybe some of the reason is my throat not really feeling well..the nite b4 i vomited..then throat feels like a bit weird..but i dun care..hehe..still go for it..haha..this kind of stressful life i really cant stand without release those tension away..after paying the bills we get a free voucher to sing in the glass room..after walk walk..we went for singing AGAIN abt 50mins...haha..damn funny..we all after choose song and sing without wasting any of the time..hehe..but b4 that..while waiting for the turn to enter the glass room..me n ling ling saw a very funny case..one intimacy spouse walked towards our direction..they approach the counter..suddenly we saw the ladies keep on caressed her husband...n both of us checked ourself and quickly run to one corner to laugh...wakakakaka...tat time really laugh till my stomach also feel pain...hmm..after singing we quickly rush for our movies =SPIDERWICK= yeah~~ so eager to watch it and i had argued with siang rui to let me choose this movie on tat nite..hihi..luckily i win lo..cos majority [3 vs 1] wanna watch spiderwick...hehe..the movie very nice and funny as well..hihi...i think worth it la~~throat really very dry..after gone home i quickly make herbs tea to drink..after drink for 3glasses..feel like vomitting..omg..keep on breathe...and stomach also feel with watery....haha..really scared tomolo after wake up i will had sore throat..so i sleep with holding a lozenges in my mouth..no wonder my teeth so easy pain..when i sore throat, i always sleep with holding lozenges .. >_<
after all i still very happy and hope we still hav the time to hang out together..hihi

~heart broken~

heart broken............pp(a rich land) no hope.....
on the day the election result out..i was disappointed by those result
again..kel is retains by pas..very de sad..no freedom...
this time m'sia really get into hot water..politic..hehe..
i always not so concern..but this time..i also wonder why it makes me
worry about that..and keep on viewing the results..
very eager to know who will be the winner..
maybe its because miracle will happen..thats why i am here dropping
my words..no mood to study and keep viewing the news..
the opposition really faught really hard and they won at last..haha..
nvm liao la..it ends tonite..it ends tonite...
my broken heart easy to recover...wakaka...
actually nothing more to write..just wan to vent on it only..haha...

~long story~

Today, friend suddenly told me is his bday..feel like i really "no heart"..it has been a long time i din really remember and cares who will be the coming bday prince n princess..it had been a long time that i din keep in touch with them..and cares abt their things..the truth is i really useless..dun hav a good time management..the fact is I DO WAT PIGS DO...everyday eat, sleep, watch drama and rushing for class..test>>last minutes, study>>last minutes..assign also last minutes..sometimes really think i am a rubbish living in this world...i duno wat happen with me..just LAZY!!! these few days i really try to face up my prob..but many things comes together and make me feel like i cant handle anything...life isn't easy..friend also not easy to make..few days ago i really feel dissapointed with XXX..really make me wanna cry..and it does..always having prob to communicate and i dun like those feelings..sometimes we are good friends but sometimes we are not..i really dun understand her...i hav been persuaded myself again n again not to think abt it..but just cant do it..i appreciate my friends..i wan to be nice with everyone but the truth is i cant make it..i am sorry to blame god that try to make this kind of things happen in my life..i wan to be strong..strong in everything..i put 0% effort in it..funny..thats why its the result..few days ago i am rushing for my assign..i saw who is really best friends..they lend me a hand..thats make me feel very touching..i really thanks them from the bottom of my heart..for XXX chew..never ask me also..i call n msg her nobody pick up phone..on the next day she still pretend nth oo...then summore dun wan choi me like that..tats make me angry + furious!!! tat day really make me no mood to listen to the lecture..keep on thinking..1week, 2 weeks continues she make me unhappy ady..everyday i try to cheer myself up..but the next day she still hurting me..maybe she dun think is a big deal..but for me it is!!! sob~sob~i dun wan to let her know all this..i am afraid that it might affect our friendship..thats why till now i never tell her i hav a blog..cos this is the only place i can vent on..i try to tell my close friends abt it but of course i cant cry in front of them..that will make them worry more...haiz.....forget it...i shouldn't care abt it anymore...never ever!! i feel very stress and so sad...omg..tomolo my eyes sure bengkak..crying non stop for 20mins ady..i wanna choose to be happy everyday..